Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Pregnancy - 26 Weeks... Eek, First Update!

haha SO yes.  I'll agree...  2nd time around is a lot less "fun".  No, I haven't had a horrible pregnancy, very easy, just like with Brooke.  Chasing a toddler (23 month old) and trying to do anything fun and extra in regards to a new babe is close to impossible!  Plus, I haven't really had anything EARTH SHAKING to share on this ol' blog.  I'm doing my best to keep up with weekly pictures because I think it's fun to compare.  Also, it's hard to find unique questions for the 2nd go round, so I made up some of my own! Enjoy!




How far along? 26 Weeks & 5 days (I know, I hate I'm not doing it on the "exact" start of a new week this time around)

Total weight gain/loss: ehhh, errr, I'm trying not to think about that! I did do ZUMBA 3 times a week when I was pregnant with Brooke, I'm lucky to get a short work out in 2-3 times a week now. I like these. 

Maternity clothes?  Some.  I'm all about not spending much money, I some of my clothes are maternity hand-me-downs, but most are just stretchy clothes.

Stretch marks? Nope, bless you sweet child, bless you! 

Sleep: HA.  Ever since Brooke was born, I STINK AT SLEEPING!  

Best moment this week: MY 23 MONTH OLD IS BASICALLY POTTY TRAINED!!! Yep, dry days in REAL undies with a diaper worn at nap and night time.  I'm pretty happy, if you can't tell :) 

Miss Anything? The freedom to go out whenever I want and have a quick and successful shopping trip.  For real, I love Brooke but it was a heck of a lot easier to get in and out of a lot of stores in a short amount of time before she joined me as my partner in crime :) 

Movement: Yes, she's a wiggler! 

Food cravings: No, I haven't really had any this time around either. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not at all. 

Have you started to show yet: Yes, a lot higher than I was with Brooke, which makes me look like a blob.

Gender: Another sweet lil lady, Taylor Grace!

Labor Signs:  None. 

Belly Button in or out? Still in!  It's getting flatter though. 

Wedding rings on or off?  Still on, but getting tighter. 

Happy or Moody most of the time: This all depends on Brooke's temperament... I know, terrible.  haha If she's easy going and doesn't fuss, I'm good.  If she's fussy all day... I just want to be a lonely grump after she goes to bed. 

Looking forward to: Getting the girls rooms decorated and situated. Praying the transition from a crib to a twin bed is easy for Brooke! 

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Sounds Like Life To Me: Miscarriage #2


Yep.  January 24th I had a positive pregnancy test.  Ever since Brooke was born we hadn't "prevented" getting pregnant, but nothing was happening. Yes, I nursed her until she was 13 months old but everything seemed to be working correctly.  haha anyways, long story short, I had a positive pregnancy test, found out according to my calculations I was 5-6 weeks along and we were not really excited.


With my first pregnancy, blighted ovum/miscarriage it has really jaded me and taken most of the joy out of seeing a positive pregnancy test.  I ALWAYS consider it false.  Well, the whole time I was pregnant with Brooke, I checked to see if I was bleeding each time I went to the bathroom.  It wasn't until she was in my arms that I believed I actually was with child.

So a few days went on and Monday, February 3rd rolled around and I started spotting.  I went to the Dr. they did a pregnancy test, congratulated me because it was positive and sent me home with a big packet of information.  Little did I know I would be back in the doctors office EVERYDAY that week with one thing or another.  I started BLEEDING Tuesday, and it continued and is still with me.  I was an exhausted human pin cushion who was being poked and prodded and I still didn't feel sad like last time.  I'm not sure what it was.  Oh yes, and I  had a strep like virus that required antibiotics and a reoccurring fever over 101.  It was a tough week.

I guess the word I keep thinking is "frustrated." I was frustrated with God because everyone else is having more kids, and I want more kids, though I can barely handle the one I have some days, frustrated that my body tricked me AGAIN that it was pregnant and it really wasn't.  Frustrated at the time I spent going back and forth to the doctor.  Frustrated that I slept poorly and was always cold.  Frustrated that I had to tote my child with me to doctors visits.  Frustrated that I wasn't going to be able to "spend time" with my husband until the pregnancy left my body.  Frustrated that I was now going to have my paperwork say "3 pregnancies and 1 birth".  Frustrated that I was sick and having a miscarriage and that my daughter wouldn't let me rest and life wouldn't stand still and laundry wouldn't clean itself and dinner wasn't always good or even ready on time.  It was just a terrible, horrible, no good very bad week!

All that to say,  I was frustrated but it was all silly, worthless things to be frustrated at and I got over it all very quickly.  I wish I could say it was because the Holy Spirit got a hold of me and reminded me that God is in control and that everything was going to be okay.  Yes, that was part of it.  The other part was looking down, holding, laughing at, and looking in the mirror at my mini-me, Brooke.  Yep, I remember, I had a miscarriage once, then I had a flawless pregnancy and labor and now a child.  Life goes on.  Also, the statistics of the amount of women who have miscarriages is still shocking to me.  So I deem it as "normal" now for me.  So I can get over it and get on with life easier.

One song that I heard that really spoke to me after an appointment was this, Worn, by Tenth Avenue North.
Tenth Avenue North - Worn (Official Music Video) from tenth-avenue-north on GodTube.

Charles asked me one time, "Kim, when do you feel God.  I responded quickly because I knew the answer so tenderly... "when I hold Brooke."  We normally lay Brooke down at night and let her fuss until she falls asleep.  But some days, some nights, I just hold her.  She's all worked up but suddenly melts into my arms and chest and is silent, and still.  She is peaceful in my arms and she knows she can rest in my protection.  One night last week I did just that.  Selfishly, I needed to feel God.  I needed His warmth around me, I needed his peace and simplicity to cover all of my frustration and sadness and heal me.  So I entered Brooke's room as she was fussing herself to sleep, picked her up and sunk deep into God's love.  The image I have is God holding me, just has I held my child.  He is my peace, my comfort and my place I go to when life's just too much.  He reminds me to be still.

So that's the update on our life right now.  We pray with open arms and hearts.  I write posts like this for me.  I need them.  They help me with closure and healing.  We are surrendering our wills and laying down our desires and seeking God's will to be done in our lives.


Saturday, November 17, 2012

Brooke Grayson's Birth Story


41 weeks



Our sweet Brooke Grayson was born at 9:22am Thursday, November 8th she is officially 1 week old!
She was 6 lbs 6.8oz, 18.5" long, and they didn't tell us her head circumference.

Here's our birth story: 

We went in for our 40 week, weekly check up Tuesday the 6th at 7:30am. I was 2cm dialated and 70% effaced, the midwife said, "Well, looks like we'll meet this little one in about 24 hours!" We then left the doctors, ate breakfast at Denny's (we should have gone to Ihop, though Denny's wasn't terrible).  We were over joyed and still in disbelief we would meet our daughter so soon! We left breakfast, I went to work to collect my belongings and say goodbye to co-workers, and Charles headed back to the office to work.  I still wasn't feeling any contractions or anything different.  I was very thankful work said go ahead and stay home.

I rested, packed my toiletries in my bag, worked from home sitting on my birthing ball, did laundry, and other housework to get ready for the baby.  Charles and I went to Chik-fil-a in town for lunch, we had a great conversation and enjoyed more time together!  Since we were going to Greenville to deliver (about an hour and 15 mins from our house) we were planning on going to stay with his parents so we could labor there and be 20 mins from the hospital.  Charles asked me about 5pm if we wanted to sleep there Tuesday night, I said no, because I didn't feel any progress and I knew we would sleep better at home.  We went out to eat at this yummy cheese steak place and then went next door to get some 50 cent wings.  We went home, and went to bed.  Needless to say, the 24 hour prediction was wrong because we should have been having a baby around 8am the next morning.

We woke up, Charles went to work and I did everything I could to induce labor, yes, spicy food (ate a bite of his spicy hot wing - YUCK) raspberry tea, sex, walked in the neighborhood together... I was discouraged it had been over 24 hours and not even a cramp.  Charles had been telling people 24 to 48 hours and I was like "no honey, that's not what the doctor said," haha silly me.  Finally, around 4pm I was experiencing more regular cramping but it wasn't strong enough to call it contractions.  I downloaded a contraction timer and began to track them.  They started about 10 mins apart and shortened to about 6 minutes apart by 5:30pm.  A friend asked me if I wanted to go walking at the mall with her and her kids and I said yes. I wanted to see if these were labor pains (I rested and walked and they weren't going away but were getting more regular to worse). Charles joined us at the mall, and we decided it was time to go to Greenville.

At this point, I was uncomfortable and deemed them official contractions. Everything I have read says you will feel a wrapping, squeezing pain and mine wasn't. It was a sharp, concentrated pain on my pubic bone area, it never spread anywhere else.  I almost feel like it would have been better if it encompassed more of my body, it was very difficult having one "pressure point".  I didn't have any back pain either.  We headed to Greenville, spent a little time laboring at my inlaws (sat on an exercise ball and the toilet, and walked around a little bit).  We decided to call the Midwife because they were coming every 2 minutes and I couldn't/didn't want to talk during them and really couldn't get much relief in between. She told us to come into the hospital and get checked out, she was already up there for another birth.

We got there, waited 15 minutes or so to get checked in, though we had pre-registered, I was moaning in pain and the person checking in wasn't even uncomfortable, ugh! haha So, long story short, I had planned on having as natual a labor a possible, I read 2 Bradley Method books and thought I had a pretty high pain tolerance.

So finally they brought me back to triage to check my progress before deciding to admit me or not.  Contractions were every minute 30 seconds and very painful.  It was around 9:45 pm.  I was 5cm dilated and 90% effaced.  The midwife said I should go ahead and be admitted.  By this point, I was in so much pain because they were coming so frequently, I crawled on the bed for some rest, I didn't want to move around.  Once I laid down they started hooking up monitors and trying to get a port in for IV's.  They stuck me 6 times and were very unsuccessful getting a vein.  Finally the midwife got one in my hand.  That was more painful than some of my contractions!!! Charles said it was terrible.  They finally got a vein and concluded I was dehydrated. Yes, as you read earlier, when we thought we were 24 hours from the birth of our child, I was at home, not at work drinking a lot of water like I normally do, and we ate out 3 meals (which I rarely do). So yes, stupid me had let my body get dehydrated and they concluded this was why my contractions were so close together.

The midwife came in again about 11 to check on me, 5cm and 90% still... she said, you're only about half way.  Well, I was in pain, I wasn't pleasant to anyone and I was exhausted.  I asked what my options were, she said a pain med drip or an epidural.  I decided to try the pain med drip.  It did nothing during contractions, and made me groggy and loopy during my break between contractions.  We stopped that very quickly.  I realized I couldn't do it, I didn't know if it was my pain tolerance that couldn't withstand the pressure or my mental ability to cope with the pain.  I gave in and asked for an epidural.  The Dr. came in about 12:45 to do the epidural, since my contractions were so close together he had to insert the epidural during a contraction... SCARY! I was leaning on Charles, GROANING trying not to move because the Dr. kept saying "You have no idea how close I am to your spinal cord right now" ... Thanks. That's reassuring! Well, we got the epidural in and hunkered down for some rest.  I was really nervous about the epidural. I had heard many horror stories (didn't work, worked too well, etc.) Mine was great.  It completely numbed my knees to my belly button but I could still kinda move my lower legs and definitely my feet and toes.

The midwife said we should have a baby in the morning.  Charles and his mom slept.  I tried my best to sleep but all of the monitors (contraction, and her heartbeat) had me pretty awake.  Also, the nurses were constantly coming in to monitor things/change out the paper in the heart rate monitor machine (my monitors were all external, but they had to reposition Brooke's heart rate monitor a lot because she was still moving around.)

5am rolled around and they nurses said the midwife would be in soon to check the progress.  9-10cm and 100% effaced, almost go time! There was another lady a few rooms down basically the exact same labor stage (but this was her third baby) so she was getting priority of nurses/midwives.  Shift change was at 7am so we had to wait until about 7:30 for anyone to come in again.  It stunk changing up nurses after almost 10 hours of them being with us.  It's like they did all the hard work and then someone else just came in and got the glory for it.  Oh well, we knew we'd see them again at 7.

So, we started pushing around 8am.  I could not feel my contractions so we had to watch the monitor to tell me when to push.  And by push, yes, push like you're pushing out a biiiiiiiig poop. hahaha My contractions had fluctuated from 4 minutes to 6 minutes apart and were now 6 minutes apart.  This made pushing a long, slow process.  Yes, every 6 minutes this is how it went: "Ok Kim, deep breath, hold it and push for 10 seconds, we'll do this 3 times per contraction.  Okay... go!  You're doing great...1.................2................3...............yeah I don't have enough "...." to explain to you how slow they counted.  I truly thought I was going to pass out, and so did Charles.  They offered me some oxygen (a little mask I could grab) in between contractions for some extra energy.  haha most of my contractions were long and they'd throw in a "alright Kim, can you give us one more?" haha yeah so 4 "10 second" pushes.

This went on for about 30 minutes and the midwife was getting bored. hahaha okay, not bored but she did have another call she took and left us with the nurses.  Oh yes, I forgot to mention, she brought in a mirror, I didn't ask for it and I didn't really look during contractions because I was too busy trying not to pass out during pushes.

When the midwife got back, she suggested we speed this up process.  Okay, lets recap... IV (I originally didn't want this if I didn't have to get it),  pain drip (yeah, didn't plan on this either, epidural
(yeahhh not in the game plan), and now pitocin... why the heck not!? haha I tried my best not to focus on how wrong my labor was going (according to our "plan") but on the fact that we were sooooo close to meeting our daughter!

Pitocin sped them up to every 4 minutes, she was crowning, and the midwife said, "well, I only do this to about 2 or 3 women a year but, you have a really long perineum and you could be pushing forever, probably tear, so I suggest and episiotomy." Oh do you??? haha okay IV, pain drip, pitocin, epidural, episiotomy... bless.  So Charles and I looked at each other and said... just do it. 

The next contraction, snip, snip (yep, scissors you could audibly hear the cut, YUCK) and out popped Brooke Grayson Barrett at 9:22am!

They plopped her on me, stitched me up (2nd degree cut), delivered the placenta, and then Charles cut the cord.  She was slimy, with a head full of hair and a little raspy cry.  She actually pooped as soon as she came out (and they didn't put a diaper on her until almost an hour and a half later when they came in to wash her and weigh her.

Okay, that's all for now! Next post I'll share about the mandatory 48 hour post partum stay at the hospital (what Greenville does for first timers) and the first few days.

This was more or less for us... to remember the details of our daughters birth so we can compare after each labor and delivery.

Praise the Lord for a healthy, sweet baby girl we waited 40 long weeks to meet!


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Pregnancy: 40 weeks

 



How far along? 40 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +30 lbs as of this morning's appointment ... WHAT!? haha

Maternity clothes?  Same, pants yes... tops, not many.

Stretch marks? Nope, bless you sweet child, bless you!

Sleep: Still sleeping well :)

Best moment this week: Going to our 40 week appointment and hearing we were progressing well!  2cm dilated and 70% effaced, mucus plug is out and the mid wife could feel her head!


Miss Anything?  Getting up/moving positions without straining and grunting... haha yes, I feel like a beached whale still!

Movement: Yes, she's a wiggler!

Food cravings: No, still nothing!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not at all.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, round and curvy!

Gender: Sweet girl we'll get to meet very soon!

Labor Signs:  Cramping, dilation, lost mucus plug, dropped ... Midwife says we should see her in about 24 hours!!! Praying for a swift and healthy delivery for Mom and baby Brooke, and mental sanity and strength for Dad :)

Belly Button in or out? Still in, but very, VERY flat!

Wedding rings on or off?  No rings for now, it will be easier to just keep them at home.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy!!! I've been told my mood will change veeerrrrrryyyyy soon to a less than pleasant person...

Size of Baby:Well baby center says about 20 inches and weighs a bit over 7  1/2 pounds... but I highly doubt that, unless she's really good at hide and seek!

Looking forward to:Meeting our sweet girl in 24-48 hours! Praying for an AMAZING labor and delivery and meeting our sweet little one! Praying for her healthy and ease with nursing.  We can't to be parents :)

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Pregnancy Update: 39 weeks

 


How far along? 39 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +25.4 lbs ... Eek!

Maternity clothes?  Same, pants yes... tops, no

Stretch marks? Nope, bless you sweet child, bless you!

Sleep: Some nights I can't sleep, but those are few.  I love sleep but I haven't taken a nap since my 2nd trimester... there's always too much to do!

Best moment this week: Finding out our home we flipped is under contract!!! We should close on it mid November!!! Praise the Lord!!!

Miss Anything?  Getting up/moving positions without straining and grunting... haha yes, I feel like a beached whale :)

Movement: Oh yes, Charles loves it! He gets to feel our little wiggles a lot!

Food cravings: Nope.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not at all.

Have you started to show yet: Ehhhh I'm really not sure... you tell me :) haha 

Gender: Girl... but not a girly girl, HOPEFULLY

Labor Signs: No, haha but I really, really don't want my water to break on my furniture, in my car, or on my mattress.  Why, you ask?  I don't want to have to clean it up! haha at work, SURE, Walmart, yeah take that, at a restaurant, why the heck not!? haha I will not be embarrassed, I will be thankful it's not my responsibility to clean it up.  Who cares if I look like I peed my pants... jokes on them because they can obviously tell I'm pregnant and getting on my hands and knees and scrubbing up fluid doesn't sound like fun to me right now :)

Belly Button in or out? Still in, but very, VERY flat!

Wedding rings on or off?  I'm wearing my size 6 fake ring a lot more now.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy!!! God is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!

Size of Baby:Well baby center says about 20 inches and weighs a bit over 7 pounds... but I highly doubt that, unless she's really good at hide and seek!

Looking forward to: Becoming a parent with my favorite man in the world, Charles Grayson, and us meeting our daughter!  And losing baby weight... yeah I looked back at some pictures toady, and I looked good! hahaha hopefully I can get back to normal size me sooner than later :)  Oh well, so worth it! LOVE YOU BROOKE!